Saturday, 22 November 2014

"Job well done, standing ovation....

.... yeah you got what you wanted, I guess you won."

It's been a long while since I posted, and in all honesty, it's kind of  a good thing as I tend to turn here when things aren't great.  Today, I lost a lot of friends, well at least I think I did, maybe I just discovered what I'd known all along... they were never friends at all.  

I've always been proud of my instinctive nature with people, I could sniff out poison from a thousand paces, and left it well alone; my parents used to laugh at the way I cherry picked only the very best people to be friends with... always kind-hearted, caring, sharing, innocent types, it was always about quality, not quantity.  However, my senses, like many things, have reduced in function as I've gotten older.  Luckily, those true friends have stuck with me through thick and thin, but the other fly-by-nights have come and gone.  

Today, more flew away, only this time it was my fault... well that's what I was told anyway.  You see, I did the unthinkable... no, I didn't lie, cheat, steal or kill someone, no, I told the truth.  I know, it sounds a little simple, but really that's all I did, and what's more  I thought I was doing it to make things better.  Well, it kinda did... but not for me.  I wrote a well articulated letter explaining my reasons for leaving a particular job, I didn't single anyone out, I wrote about the experiences I had, and how I personally had felt.  I maybe underestimated the reactions of the powers that be, or maybe I underestimated the power of my words, but nevertheless, they took me seriously... perhaps a little too seriously, or perhaps my letter was just the ignition for a gas already flowing.  To put a long story short, someone was suspended, almost lost "everything", but then they got their job back.  I'd be pretty pissed if I was that person.  But it seems, the aggression has been directed right at me... no one took into consideration the 3 years of bullying and hypocrisy that I, and many others have experienced, no one took into consideration that lowly little me could actually have such a phenomenal effect on someone else, just from telling the truth.  So how very dare I.  

So that's the short of it, I lost my so called friends, for telling the truth.  Now they are more united than ever, they no longer pick at the seams of a failing office, instead they're pulling together as a team and fending off their critics.... just like they did in the beginning.  So, yes, I got what I wanted, I guess I won.